Wind Trails.

桜色舞うころ, 私はひとり
押さえきれぬ胸に 立ち尽くしてた

若葉色 萌ゆれば 想いあふれて
すべてを見失い あなたへ流れた

めぐる木々たちだけが
ふたりを見ていたの
ひとどころにはとどまれないと
そっとおしえながら

枯葉色 染めてく あなたのとなり
移るいゆく日々が 愛へと変るの

どうか木々たちだけは
この想いを守って
もう一度だけふたりの上で
そっと葉を揺らして

やがて季節はふたりを
どこへ運んでゆくの
ただひとつだけ 確かな今を
そっと抱きしめていた

雪化粧 まどえは 想いはぐれて
足跡も消してく 音無きいたずら

どうか木々たちだけは
この想いを守って
「永遠」の中ふたりとどめて
ここに 生き続けて

めぐる木々たちだけが
ふたりを見ていたの
ひとどころにはとどまれないと
そっとおしえながら

桜色舞うころ, 私はひとり
あなたへの想いを かみしめたまま

作詞: 川江美奈子 作曲: 川江美奈子

*howl* ..... am i a wolf or what..-_-?yawnzz...should i consider myself just woke up or what,nah...i shouldn't cause i din even sleep for the whole night again..thinking of that..i felt tat its stupid to do such action..Jeezz..well at first i thought of going to school,but in the end i've been invited by my fren to play traunt...came to think of it..i also din do so for quite some time though..so i just play for the whole night...and i just pretend sleepy and called my dad to come back home to fetch me to school so that i could run away before the prefects arrive for duties ya see..hmm..

well well...recently i kinda felt like quitting the life of a gamer though..playing games kinda made me feel bored now..and i kept on thinking wherethe if i will be able to do more useful stuffs than playing games man..well..exam fever will be starting soon..just a couple of days more..and its time to revise whole years work..and i just kinda worried...will i be able to make it this time??this sentence keep on stirring in my mind..*sigh*

everyone starting a new life lols..even jovan's life is changing too well..although hes kinda self-centered sometimes but..harmm..what can i do lols..sometimes i also kinda hate myself..ever since when..i started becoming an idiot who wears a mask in front of other people..well..before that i was just so emo and it makes everyone thinks that im so called Lan C..lols..now..thought of changing back to old ways..but of course..not academic/attitude la...is lifestyle..

jeez..its 5.26am..i think i'd better get going...gotta reach school by 6am..phewww.thats all for today..-_-..maybe i will continue tonight or some other day..

おはいよございます~!!hehe its 5.52am in the morning!yahoo,and im awaken..nah..actually is because i slept at 8pm yesterday..man i was so damn tired that after dinner,i straight went to bed and by the time i woke up is 4am!

so what had i done?Garena~~lols...played a round of DotA and then a few rounds of mini games..hmm the day was awesome though,planned to upload a few photos..but i lended yin yee my data transferer for my cell phone ..sigh..recently i was like quit-ted online gaming sia..not much nice game released recently though..cabal is hell boring..ragnarok online 2 was like also boring cause not much stuffs release yet..and granado espada was like..no $$=no gameplay zz...well..my room is well equipped now..its brings a real "teenage room" feeling after installing the furnitures lols..well i will take a couple of screenshots when i get my data transferer back this friday ^^V

Nyway its time to pack things upz and get ready to school!Wish that i have a nice dayye~!

拝啓
この手紙読んでいるあなたは
どこで何をしているのだろう

十五の僕にには誰にも話せない
悩みの種があるのです

未来の自分に宛てて書く手紙なら
きっと素直に打ち明けられるだろう

いま　負けそうで　泣きそうで
消えてしまいそうな僕は
誰の言葉を信じ歩けばいいの？
ひとつしかないこの胸が何度もばらばらに割れて
苦しい中で　今を生きている

拝啓
ありがとう　十五のあなたに
伝えたい事があるのです

自分とは何でどこへ向かうべきか
問い続ければ見えてくる

荒れた青春の海は厳しいけれど
明日の岸辺へと　夢の船よ進め

今　負けないで　泣かないで
消えてしまいそうな時は
自分の声を信じ歩けばいいの
大人の僕も傷ついて眠れない夜はあるけど
苦くて甘い今を生きている

人生の全てに意味があるから
恐れずにあなたの夢を育てて
Keep on believing

負けそうで　泣きそうで
消えてしまいそうな僕は
誰の言葉を信じ歩けばいいの？

ああ　負けないで　泣かないで
消えてしまいそうな時は
自分の声を信じ歩けばいいの

いつの時代も悲しみを避けては通れないけれど
笑顔を見せて　今を生きていこう
今を生きていこう

拝啓
この手紙読んでいるあなたが
幸せな事を願います

Haikei kono tegami yondeiru anata wa
Doko de nani wo shiteiru no darou

Juugo no boku ni wa dare ni mo hanasenai
Nayami no kanae ga aru no desu

Mirai no jibun ni atete kaku tegami nara
Kitto sunao ni uchiake rareru darou

Ima makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou na boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo
Shinji arukeba ii no?
Hitotsu shika nai kono mune ga nando mo barabara ni warete
Kurushii naka de ima wo ikiteiru
Ima wo ikiteiru

Haikei arigatou juugo no anata ni
Tsutaetai koto ga aru no desu
Jibun to wa nani de doko e mukau beki ka
Toitsu dzukereeba mietekuru

Areta seishun no umi wa kibishii keredo
Asu no kishibe e to yume no fune yo susume

Ima makenai de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinjiaru keba ii no?
Otona no boku mo kizutsuite
Nemurenai yoru wa aru kedo
Nigakute amai ima ikiteiru

Jinsei no subete ni imi ga aru kara
Osorezu ni anata no yume wo sodatete
La la la, la la la
Keep on believing
La la la, la la la,
Keep on believing, keep on believing, keep on believing

Makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo shinji arukeba ii no?
Aa Makenaii de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinjiarukeba ii no
Itsu no jidai mo kanashimi mo
Sakete wa torenai keredo
Egao wo misete ima wo ikite yukou
Ima wo ikite yukou

Haikei kono tegami yondeiru anata ga
Shiawase na koto wo negaimasu

Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing now?

For me who's 15 years old
There are seeds of worries I can't tell anyone

If it's a letter addressed to my future self,
Surely I can confide truly to myself

Now, it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?
This one-and-only heart has been broken so many times
In the midst of this pain, I live the present

Dear you,
Thank you
I have something to tell the 15-year-old you

If you continue asking what and where you should be going
You'll be able to see the answer

The rough seas of youth may be tough
But row your boat of dreams on
Towards the shores of tomorrow

Now, please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice
For me as an adult, there are sleepless nights when I'm hurt
But I'm living the bittersweet present

There's meaning to everything in life
So build your dreams without fear
Keep on believing

Seems like I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?

Please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice

No matter era we're in
There's no running away from sorrow
So show your smile, and go on living the present
Go on living the present

Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
I wish you happiness

(All credits to Angela!)

ok today im totally busted up,crap?4 bad things happen on me straight this morning and now it makes me total stressed up!!

1st,i late to school,my and the first 3 student went to pull the grass,crap and its damn tiring and long,and my friend jovan?their group just walk around picking up some rubbish on the floor,and back to their position,and me?im still pulling the grass HELLL!!!

2nd:Absent.Hell yeah,mr.bala said im the undefeatable champion..champion of wat...absent..-_-do these teachers have to use such INTERESTING expression to describe me?one word FUCK tat idiot pineapple(form teacher,Cikgu Anas)jibai 2nd period suddenly call me to go field meet him,do wat?lecture me...-_-...1st i thought those things he said was real,actually he was fucking his own brain,he jibai thinks im a fool,fuck tell me i absent 21 days within 9 months can receive the 3rd warning letter,_|_ i went back to class check the rules book of our school...and FUCK!!there stated that a student will only receive the 3rd warning letter when he/she is absent more than 40 days without reason,tat na beh pineapple 1st thing in the morning make my day miserable already,talk shit over there

3rd:Mr.bala period...whats today lesson?Grammer..-_-..ok all along i dont do his work,so the english exercise book 1,2 and 3..i totally dun have 1 and 3,only have 2,and the 2 is a mix up of 1,2 and 3..and all along he wun check my book,so i just heck care,suddenly duno wat cb is wrong wif me..when he requested us to copy the questions on the board..i was dreaming...so he saw me and called up my name and ask me bring my good for nothing rojak exercise book for him to see,and HOHOHOHOHO,he reveal my deepest secrets,which he discribed in a way that i dun bother to do the homework he gave and also tat im hell no interested in his lessons,he was about to BREAK his limit then suddenly he cooled down..and he said he would give me a period of 2 weeks to RE complete the 3 books,and what was in my mind that time?"great..im totally busted"what can i do..at least better than nothing,so he wrote down in his record book and asked me to sign and bla bla..and that's off for this 3rd bad luck.

4th:Rubik cube..-_-..due to my success in finish the cube yesterday i was happy so i brought to school,well..i can turn fast..but must look at the formulas."sadded"well nvm,at least i look like a beginner..^^V..but...after english is chinese lesson..so in order to release my stress ,i just keep turn and turn the cube..and when i got to the last 4th step..suddenly my chinese teacher stood at the back of me and look at me,i was ashocked..but he smiled at me and just walk in the class,i was like phew..actually the cube is consider as illegal item in our school..well..during his lesson..ouchy..it was so damn hell boring..so what i do is do a few turns..suddenly he noticed that i was playing with the cube and he take the cane and came to my sitting place and i put up my hand and he caned me..then he continued his lesson..ZZZZ..FUCK LA!!from tat moment..i was thinking..wat the hell is wrong with me today..is like the whole world is trying to drive me to the wall..sigh..sadded totally..

jeez..idiotic...how i wish to become more idiotic than before....those memories,will nvr worth anything to me from now on...cheh...cant hold back my tears much though...

im really one lost young bird..
my eyes had been blindfolded..
i can't find the path of light..
all that's within me...despair..sadness..

perhaps if i brush away..
the thinking to get invovle in a relationship..
and get back to the life of a student..
isn't that wise...worse still..
i felt that myself is suck...

trying to act stupid..in order to cover up my emo-ness
every words that i spit out from my mouth..
doesn't really what i mean...
i acted lame,idiotic,cold joker..
and after that...i felt tat...i hate myself..

heh..wats the point being a famous gamer..
when u have nothing else to share with ur frens..
except games ,games and games...
Lord o Lord..when are u gona make me see while im blind now?
guess that would never happen..

as i fade away,i will not shed a single tear,
im willing to face the consequences for what i've done..
chih..idiotic..