Wind Trails.

I've been asking this question to myself lots of times..but there isn't a single time i could answer it.

At least..I'm feeling better..much more better than before...after talking to a few friends in my school,i felt more ok..but i still can't find a good listener.All i have was craps and craps,tons of craps..duhh..hah..what can i say..maybe..really during this age of mine..things really go the way not i wanted too...but i believe someday..when the time is right,God will show the way to me..I believe..it's really hard for me to get over it..but i will bear with it..and i will forgive and forget no matter what it takes to be...i swear it..

School reopened today,it was torturing at first,and great in the middle,and awful at last.

The Torturing part 1:

Fat ass good for nothing head duck Phang talk lots and tons of rubbish during assembly in the hall.My energy which was charged up the whole night suddenly gone down and i fall asleep due to the extreme bored-ness in his every word.

The Torturing part 2:

Got into class after that not long later was history period,same old teacher,same old way of nagging,same old way of attitude,she was just like a bucket of oil poured into my fire,the more i hear she nags the more i feel like giving her a slap and just tell her to shut the crap out even though she's not nagging at me,but others..oh mann...and that time I was in depression condition that made me felt like jumping off from the corridor..@@

The Great part 1:

Was enjoying the time crapping around with friends..the jokers are still here with us,and so am i one of them..wakaka..Chiang Boon is in same class with me and looks like he's so emoo o.o...but i know both reason that he emo..hmph..

The Great part 2:

1st day of school reopen...SLEEP.Loong was the most geng..fall asleep first and i was the second..man lessons were total boring man..i rather do my own study work than listen to what the teacher talking shits over there man,and she's not teaching dude!It's just talking nonsence and nagging!HUH!

The Awful:

Ok..at first it's not that i skipped breakfast but is that i ate not enough..so my stomach kena gastric again..and i ate a few tablets of freezing mint and that makes it more WORST..and at first we were supposed to go over to Ipoh Parade to "Pinjam Guna Tandas" but at the end I just can't afford to do so...stomach was so pain that it gets on my nerves..and at the end a few of us walk out the school gate 15 mins earlier than the actual dismiss time and i saw my mum just arrive when i was about to crossover to have my meal..and that's it!

The Highlights!!

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WOOOT!!Eugene Khoo you're so damn lame man!!hahahaha..ok about today's event..

Morning
-Skipped breakfast due to anxiety......!!!!????
-Brainwashed inside toilet.......!!!!????
-Devoured 2 egg tarts for breakfast.....==
-Wash up and Mum came back and smack me upside down for skipping breakfast...=(
-Logged in Atlantica and found myself still in a sticky situation...==+


Afternoon
-Went to Ebony for guitar lesson and found someone not there.
-Chat with teacher and we were like so LAMMEEEEE.
-Went home and there came my 2 buddies Ansen and Jovan.
-Chat along the way untill we reach Ipoh Parade mall around 4pm.
-Popular first and we saw the long lost Miss Cindy Chun Phooi Yee putting on weight...WAKAKA
-Bought RM122 of books and stationaries and Marybrown we headed to.
-After that was Cold Storage and we got ourselves 2 cans of Anglia Shandy and a pack of sour gum sweets and 2 icecream cones!

Night
-Came back home just in time and I kena hammer for in a not-so-devour mode to dine...>< -Ansen went back with his stuffs and new bag..=)
-Finished whole packet of sweets and I scare penyakit come now..T.T
-Lcc asked for CALau's hp number.......!!!!??==
-Skype with friends and waiting our boss for DotA.!
-Was mengamuk-ing during this period ...>.<
-Further updates...

-End-

Some of you would say,Walao KNS man u,u think byakuya meh!!?ROFL!!


Urh Hmm..I repeat..Sovereignty!

I love that word..XP..

Declarations+

1st.You don't understand me at all.

2nd.You just got me busted up.

3rd.I feel as good as an idiot now.

4th.Everything was Bullshit!

5th.I don't hate you at all.

6th.Now I understand you better than before!=)

7th.I hate being lonely.

8th.This is just ridiculous.

9th.We'll meet again next time.

10th.I will always hope for the best.

The end+ The beginning=Never end-

Yea..this will be my last post of sillyness..the next time i will write in a different way..ok get straight to the point..duhh..i hate December 2008 this month..i truly hate it..cause i did the most mistakes on that month and that made my new year a nightmare..why i called it a nightmare?every year's december 31 all of us would hang out together ..but this year..hehs..im alone..i slept at 11am is because im totally pissed off with everything..i just wanted to sleep early to get myself outta it..i just cant forget every single thing that happened,i swore to myself,i whacked myself up,told myself damn just forget it!but in the end when the small bits of memories come in vision within me..i will get so pain..not that my eyes is crying,is my heart is crying..i wonder..how long can i bear with it and get over with it and keep on acting like nothing happened before!?

I've always..hated this world..things that i hated will just keep happening..Truly madly deeply i hated this damn world alot!!!!Affection this word..is already going to move out from my dictionary..heh..God u really love to put on burdens for me..great way of letting me learn..i will cherish it..=)I think i should never even fell for her..just that im stupid..a nicer way of rejecting?huh...that just makes me feel more ridiculous of reality..I cant imagine...even if i die..i also couldnt imagine that things would go on like that..hell..i surely do hate this world..just lock this damn eternity memory for me..so i will never have to think bout it again..

-Please-

I hate it..I hate when this type of problem occured...I'm already totally sick of it!!

Hell I wish my memories does not EXIST AT ALL!Dump phone time,got new phone got new number just gives me goosebumps and i rather spend my time sleeping whole day whole night and be as rotten as a good for nothing DEAD MEAT!!

-Sleep-

Finally back from caroling,don't have enough sleep this morning,and woke up early to attend church service,sad isn't it?Once service end me and my mum and aunt shirley rush to kar pin coffee shop makan breakfast,ate quite much and arrived at MYC just in time while the others were walking,1st thing in the morning kena call tau ke soh again..T__T damn u Eric Gan!

1st place we went is Carevilla,then Fatimah hospital,both was ok though..then we had our lunch at Carevilla,ate one big bowl of homemade asam lemak laksa..gosh..it was marvellous,but i end up stomache..but i enjoyed it XP

Then we head to Kinta Medical Centre..well that place was kinda "Ulu" to me..kinda like an abandoned mansion..well during refreshment we had lucky draw,gratz shueh cheng for kena-ing tat T-shirt,but sad it's size does not suit you..was about to make the Nescafe 3 in 1 to recharge my energy..then in the end i decided to rather go home sleep earlier better..

Next and last spot is Pantai Hospital..that place was Ae Ok..and we are welcomed by lots of people..well that was good haha..we end at around 4.45pm and originally i thought of going to Jusco and walk walk awhile..but in the end i go back home..sorry yea irene?Don't marah ku~XP..ok that's for today.

Argh!!I cant sleep!!I hate when this happen !!HATE IT!!!T.T heart so pain now..hate la really..i need wake up 8am in the morning one arrr!!craap!things always wun work out so probably..life is really not like a bed of roses..and the part i hate the most is when its on tat side..oh crap..dark side light side which side?folow the good or the bad?whcih one!?i'd always close my eyes and think...ok isz not to be sensitive..dun think negative..positive!!I SAID POSITIVE..but in the end it came bak the square one..the more i think the more it hurts..cmon God just let me sleep please..~~T.T

well crap that out..aihz..i guess if can i wan post a private post..keep my feelings inside do hurts...its always hurts..OH CRAP JUST LET ME SLEEP LA CMON!

-lights off-

yea yea yea..and in the end i manage to blog bout YLDP...although it ended quite a couple of days ago..but anyway..it will be a very long post and i was lazy past few days to blog it..wadever..lets move on..ok..heres it..get urself prepare..for the most lamest post ever!!

9th DEC

Eugene Khoo was not having a good sleep and he slept at 4am in the morning and woke up at 9am in the morning..so when he woke up he crawled up like a snake..well..*CUT IT OUT* ok so i bath and packed my stuffs and it was a rush and i end up forgetting the bring along the most important tool which needed during the night..torchlight actually..anyway...jovan's mum came at 10am and picked me up and we had our breakfast together..abu thn i arrive at MYC at duno wat time i forgot ady..so we got into the van and the bb boys get into the CAR..yea..we reached tapah town in bout an hour time and we had our lunch at the mini KFC and our MR.president got his beloved car bang out the parking lot and stucked..well..the other boys helped out and he managed got his car back to position..ok NEXT we arrived at the campsite the first thing pop out from my mind is...oh my *****..this is a nice site and my freaking celcom no service..well tats not the worse..my phone's software crashed and it just came out from the kilang a few days ago and now rosak again WTH...aiya..forget it ba..so we put down our stuffz and we head for the registration and it was awesome i say..AWESOME..i end up in the same group wif raymond...wat la..2 years ago youthquake same group now also same..well..after ice breaking we put our stuffz at our tent and there goes my tent leader ERIC GAN...the insane one..ok forget bout it and tats off for the first day..

10th DEC

Second day of the camp and MR.Eugene here was NOT having a good nite rest and so are the others..the kongs woke up 3-4times while i woke up 2 times in the morning...so we end up roaming around the campsite 6 sumthing in the morning..ah...we had our breakfast and there goes our devotion..it was ok and it doesn't bother me much though..ok after that is session time..i joined the level 1 so i learn level 1 stuffz...the first thing we learned is DISC personality~oh well bla i lazy to elaborate wats it all bout..jus having a good time..then there goes on and other bla bla bla stuffz..team building..then free time...~~~

11th DEC

Third day of the camp and FINALLY i slept FULLY AND IT WAS GREATTT..as it goes..this time we ipoh fellas occupied the mp theater and we lepak there early in the morning...well...it was cold and i was shivering and so are the others..our Jovan keep waiting for his phone to work..due to the no-line area we were staying..argh...the session was WORST..i try to endure the boring-ness of it but in the end during the 10mins prayer i fall asleep..owww..soWEE!!! anyway after that was as usual ..team building and bla this time we have connecting time and we were ordered to so a chant for our team so i thought of one which is crappy...well u see...our team name was sapphire..so as i was mumbling...i end up spit out this "Sapphire Sapphire our ass is on fire,buy us a new attire and we shall hire u as our lier"...goshz..in the end we changed it to more religious type so..it was ae oK..and tat goes for the day..

12th DEC

Fourth day as usual early in the morning we ipoh fellas lepak at theater there again...miss annabelle and diana end up walking towards us like zombies and well i cant blame them..they are like zombies always ...ISZ..JOKING ONLY WEII..dun whack me XP...ok breakfast was kinda sucks..cause it was quite similar as the previous days..fried noodlees wif fish paste,cabbage and meat piece...aiya...complain so much for wat..can eat ma can d lor..Z.z..NEXT session was good...my devotion leader Jerrad Tan was leading the talk and we all enjoy it a lot..too bad after the talk he gtg bak to penang =(..nah oh well..after tat i kena disturb by anna again..sigh..sad casseee...well next...ah ya..the connecting time..it was sucks...suddenly our task were given and it was the one i hate the most..sketch...our title is selling aircons to eskimos...ahh crap..we sat there and talk talk talk and in the end we din do anything...aizzz...well..then the next is the 3 things we learn throughout the camp..aiz..these things all so susah..T.T..

13th DEC

One more day then so as usual..today was abit special..we will be having fun nite at 8pm and gratz to our team we din even prepare any of the task we were given yet..great..and during preparation time and we manage to get all done..and during fun nite..it was random...i mean random team perform..sigh..stupid king lawrence..T.T..made us perform the lousy chant..at least the sketch wat..we did tat well...theres all worse..aduh...ok the fun nite was great...we had our supper..which was cup noodles..and all along the nitez i kept drinking tea..oh yea~~tea is nice..good for health and pump me up..XD..nah oh well..then we were paksa to sleep T.T...ERIC STOP HUGGING ME XP..haha..well..forgot to mention bout him..he shout cause of coldness when ppl were lining up to use the tent site toilet..and all laughed..wat la..and..T.T..i call him tau ke soh..now i kena called tau ke soh..aduh...

14th DEC

ok today woke up early cause its the last day..went for wash up then last devotion and no session ! YAY~XP..well wat we did most was go around and get emails and contact from everyone lols..ah..and our transport came at 2 sumthing ++ and finally..GOD BLESS..we were heading bak to ipoh..walao talk bout tat..our van..really speeding man..we arrive at simpang pulai in bout 40mins time..tat was extremely godly FAST..WOOT..well..anyway..arrived at myc and jovan's mum came and im still phoneless..sigh..back home?bath..sit in front pc..add ppl's msn..and wala..end of story..

well sorry i simplify all..if i were to write all it will be damn damn damn longggggg untill i think my whole blog page will be occupied..sigh...will blog again..chaoz

finally and at last...i willing to write a post for my blog..aiz..this few days wat had i done..non at all..from 25th to 2nd of dec was like i chiong rappelz online..now.i stopped it..and wat fcking game i chiong?atlantica...oh well..damnit im addicted to it and i love it hell alot...i was able to reach lvl30 and learn most of the stuffs within 2 days..@@ ouch..u guys must be thinking this eugene khoo always keep ply ply ply ply...studies bad like hell..arghhh..><..well sometimes i kinda had myself and wat im doing ...

recent days behavior got me into a god damn big trouble...the worst thing ever...i had been sleeping at 5am for 1 whole week..and now im so freaking damn skinny..my eyes are like panda...and i jus went to have a facial yesterday afternoon...oh damn..easy to conclude is that now im totally..like..a freaking idiotic good for nothing panda zombie..@@!!ahh...i think i gota put a stop to this now..hell this is not working....i have camp and a trip to overseas to attend to...cant get myself look bad..@@..oh well..i guess tonite i wll just have to force myself to sleep at 12am...well gota do so...no matter wat..if not i also gota sleep by 2am..the most latest...sigh..

some of u guys would think..ahh u finaly realize it?its too late/well its not late yet...oh watever...jus freak me out..Z.Z...oh and the reason i finnaly willing to blog is because i was about to duck myself in the bed when i found out that my body is damn heating and damn sticky so in the end i took a bath and now im waiting for my hair to dry and my body is so damn cool~wakakakak...ahh..well..-_-..today is thursday ritee...well..WELCOME BAK TRIPLE Y/3Y/YIN YEE...missss eeuu so much!ZZZ...watever...if i found out no gifts then when i go taiwan it will aslo be da same wakakakak....|

ah and...finallyy..i said is FINALLYY..my phone is back..-___= after a week it went for a visit in the workshop..finaly its fix...damn tat guy said the software is bugged so now..its like pc reformat...all my contacts gone..aarrgghhh..i regret i din save it all into sim card when i have the chance to...now i gota retake all contact again...and some of em i even forgot their numbers...Z.z...oh well..i kinda feel my legs is pain now..probably i strained too much though...well..guess today i will sleep till quite late in the afternoon..so do understand me if any of u guys are finding me ya..-__-..and sorry to myself for sleeping so late!!WTF..zz|

ah well..its kinda rocks to blog using the small notebook.XP...hmm..i think my hair now is considered dried...well..time to sleep..-chaoz-